Always On My Mind, In My Heart

Time really flies.. in the blink of an eye, my grandma has left us for almost 9months.. i wonder where is she now, can she see us? i misses her so much so much… i been hoping to dream of her, waiting for her to ‘talk’ to me again.. i hate myself for being the usual person who always tend to take people ard us for granted. i remember how my grandma used to call n nag at me.. how she misses my presence when i don’t visit her for a long time.. she doted on me alot alot since i m born till i grown up. she was happy for me when i have a good career, when i graduated fm my university studies, when i got married, when i got pregnant n when she saw my bb photo while lying helplessly on the bed, struggling wif her life. she always wish to attend all the events revolving ard me and share my happiness.. she used all her love to shower n care for me.. i really missed all these, i really misses her… i regretted i didn’t spend much time wif her when she is fighting her illness.. i regretted i didn’t manage to carry my bb n let her have a final look.. she struggled so hard to stay alive to fulfill her wish to see my bb.. she passed away after i visited her one day after my confinement.. i m sad, really sad.. someone whom i love so much n who loved me so much has left forever.. how i wish she is still here to share my happiness, how i wish she can carry my darling in her arms.. but all these are now dreams which cannot come true anymore.. but i noe she will always be somewhere out there, as my guiding angel taking care n still loving us… Ah mah, you are forever my beloved ah mah.. forever in my mind, in my heart.. love u forever! thanks for loving me…